T3.

Sometimes it feels like I'm going to end up alone.

I look at all these couples, and how uninhibited they are by their insecurities... how in love they are with each other. I look at them and I see all the reasons why my last relationship failed. All the ways I could have perhaps saved it. Maybe if I wasn't so moody, maybe if I didn't find it so hard to be touched... if I could have acted a little more normal.

Maybe it's the pain or the painkillers talking, but I can't imagine finding someone who will love me despite all my insanity.