Wednesday, August 12, 2009

Who knows...


Ok. So which is it?

Is it over the top cynicism or realism that has got me seeing people in a whole different light as of late?

I feel like I can see right through people's facades. I feel like so many of the people around me have their own private agendas... living life and scheming to get things the way they want them to be.

Why is it that as soon as my Facebook status suggests boy troubles, some guy I haven't spoken to in months messages to ask me how I'm doing? In the past I would have seen that as a nice gesture maybe. Now I see it for what it really is. Now I see him for the opportunist pig that he is. I'm sorry if you have daddy issues. If you sleep with every woman you meet and ask my best friend out on a date based on a photo you saw of her on my wall.. but that doesn't give you the right to be a mysognist douche-bag.

Anyways. I don't know. I'm just very angry lately.

I should channel this anger into the articles I have lined up to write for the newspaper... those same articles with the interviews that I was so excited about only a few weeks ago.

It's weird but I really miss an old friend. We grew apart 6 months or so ago over something stupid. We were never too close, but I miss him and I don't know why.

I wish the boyfriend would call... or just spend some time with me.

I'm seeing A's parents tomorrow over dinner with some friends. I hope they're doing well. I miss A.

I don't know why I'm rambling or complaining so much. Life is really not that bad. I just need to put the right lenses on to view things with...

5 comments:

skinnylittlesister said...

hahaha, my vote with reference to the facebook boy is that you see him exactly as he presents himself and lol, unfortunately for him that would be, at this point, an opportunistic pig. But in the same breath, if he were just a fellow that hadn't already alienated you on some levels, he would still be him and your mind might not be so closed to the idea of communicating with him.
Everybody has gotta have there in...
and if no-one took advantage of opportunities as they see them, nothing would ever really change...
(Ummm, Amelie...if you haven't noticed, I can ramble ;)

Jack said...

How many fingers am I holding up?

Orhan Kahn said...

Boys are stupid, throw rocks at them.

Amélie said...

skinnylittlesister: I like your rambles. Feel free to ramble as often as possible :)

Jack: What?

Orhan: hating on your own kind now are we....?

thimscool said...

Put on the glasses that make you see your own interests...

Yes, you must live within the world of your experience... but the world is wide, and you can change your experience.

Do what you like. You're young and unencumbered.

Enjoy.