Who knows...

Ok. So which is it?

Is it over the top cynicism or realism that has got me seeing people in a whole different light as of late?

I feel like I can see right through people's facades. I feel like so many of the people around me have their own private agendas... living life and scheming to get things the way they want them to be.

Why is it that as soon as my Facebook status suggests boy troubles, some guy I haven't spoken to in months messages to ask me how I'm doing? In the past I would have seen that as a nice gesture maybe. Now I see it for what it really is. Now I see him for the opportunist pig that he is. I'm sorry if you have daddy issues. If you sleep with every woman you meet and ask my best friend out on a date based on a photo you saw of her on my wall.. but that doesn't give you the right to be a mysognist douche-bag.

Anyways. I don't know. I'm just very angry lately.

I should channel this anger into the articles I have lined up to write for the newspaper... those same articles with the interviews that I was so excited about only a few weeks ago.

It's weird but I really miss an old friend. We grew apart 6 months or so ago over something stupid. We were never too close, but I miss him and I don't know why.

I wish the boyfriend would call... or just spend some time with me.

I'm seeing A's parents tomorrow over dinner with some friends. I hope they're doing well. I miss A.

I don't know why I'm rambling or complaining so much. Life is really not that bad. I just need to put the right lenses on to view things with...