Wednesday, August 26, 2009

11:11

I'm sitting here in my room. There isn't sound except for the sound of conversation from downstairs. I haven't updated in quite a while, so I thought I would sit down, and despite the mess that my brain has been in the past little while, try to come up with some things to say.

I wish I could update on a happier note, but the fact that I messed up my final exam, my tumultuous and uncertain relationships with the people in my life, and some recent bad news from someone who I'd hoped was getting better aren't letting me out of this slum. I know I should be one of those super positive people who keep their head up no matter what happens, but at least I've improved a lot over the past years. I mean, I used to let depression consume me to the core. Now it's just something that pokes its horned little head out every once in a while.

I wish there was something I could do for all the people that I see hurting around me. I wish cancer would die off forever and stop taking so many people away from the ones they love...

2 comments:

Orhan Kahn said...

I wish I could give you a big hug, even if you wouldn't want it.

There is nothing I can say, you know exactly how to deal with this. You may not see it but you're getting stronger!

skinnylittlesister said...

Ugh....I am with you on that last wish Amelie. It seems cancer is no longer a question of if, but a question of when...